The medically abused victims of child abuse

Several of my friends are the victims of the child abuse and suffer from the after effect. I had been the abused child, abused wife … too. They want someone who is peer to them. I’m struggling my low self-esteem and feelings of inadequacy. But I’m happy because I have work to do. Through the accumulation of my daily work, I’m shaping my career. That makes me feel like a worthy individual.

But the problem is my friends who are the persons of leisure. They are on welfare and are incapable of working, because being overprescription of psychotropic drugs. There are some psychiatric adult daycare facilities in Tokyo which specialized in relatively-mild mental disease, victims of child abuse or social misfits. Now they are abused by the medical professionals and in crisis because the welfare budget is cutting back, but they can do nothing, they can’t work and they can’t resist the daycare facilities. So they ask for help to me.

I feel angry with the daycare facilities, but sometimes I feel angry with the victims too. When they ask me for help or lament the problem of the facilities to me, I tell them the alternative that they can select, the better medical care or the better lifestyle. But they never help themselves. Sometimes I feel that I’m exploited by the victims and the facilities,　and talk to myself “Why I’m making myself foolish?”.