My paralysis have been progressing prominently over past 2 years. When I found I couldn’t walk(about 3 years ago), in fact, I didn’t feel sad. The days in the wheelchair are incomvenient but there are various delight and discovery. And at first, my hands and arms are not invaded.
But day by day, the paralysis invaded my hands and arms, of course my legs. For example, I can write with ball-pointed pen this February, but now I can’t. All movements that are necessary to bring daily life take me my reduced strength. And I can’t cared enough, only 3 hours per week.
In a state of complete burnout, I worked and studied, but I was too tired to do that. My brain can’t think straight, and I can’t feel to sleep. After 3 months of complete burnout, I worsen schizophrenia, that is my chronic disease.
Now I’m in the mental hospital to take the rest. I’m physically and mentally disabled, so Tokyo Metropolitan pay the bill. Here I can eat meals 3 times per day, and take bath 1 times per 2 or 3 days. I’m doing my work and study in a calm frame of mind. But I’m pessimistic. After I left this hospital, my daily life will be very dangerous and dirtiness as usual. I wish my safe and healthy life with enough care, but in Japan, my wish never come true.
